Unable to get over loss of pet

[millio2b]

My pet dog of 17yrs passed 3 days back. I can't get over it.

He was suffering and the vet advised is time..

I feel so guilty in the rush of things. I could do nothing about it.
In the moment I didn't even think to go get him something nice to eat at that time.
It just happened..

Couple of days before, I scolded him for barking when I was occupied with work.
I feel he went knowing he was scolded rather than knowing I loved him.

He trusted me lying on the table, and I actually signed the forms to let him go..

I can't take it. That's all I can think about.
And mind going places it shouldn't. I don't know what to do.

How can I at least cope. I can't take it..

 

[JoanneF]

I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the circumstances that it happened. I'm sure your dog won't hold a scolding against the years of love and care that you gave him, but I can hear how much you are struggling. It is a devastatingly painful experience, but he isn't suffering any more.

I think you would benefit from speaking with a trained pet bereavement counsellor. The Blue Cross offers this -
Pet bereavement and pet loss - please consider contacting them.

 

[Hemlock]

Be kind to yourself. This happens with all of us. It takes a long time to feel anything except devastated, and that is because we love them so much. I agree with JoanneF's suggestion.

 

[JudyN]

You are absolutely not alone - it is so, so hard to lose a dog, and for you it was very sudden, too, so even more of a shock.

In the early days, you can feel as if you've been hit by a bus, and have physical symptoms. Neither my husband and I could sleep, we both felt as if we had flu, and for some reason were incredibly thirsty - do please make sure you drink enough).

Time will ease the pain. For now, as Hemlock says, be kind to yourself. If it helps, and when you are ready, tell us about your dog and maybe share photos - I'm sure he had a great life with you.

 

[arealhuman]

I'm glad you found us here and shared your story. It is tough. Very tough. I was in this situation earlier this year and was completely and utterly devastated. All of the comments above are helpful. Seek support from the Blue Cross. Reassure yourself that you cared for you dog for many, many years and sadly, the end comes for all of us.

Things will get easier for you, it will take time, but you will remember the happy times you shared. I think of Jimmy, who we lost last March, every single day. I question what more could I have done frequently. I do get quite sad. But he had a good life with us, he brought us immeasurable joy, and we gave him a kind and loving home.

Don't beat yourself up. I really do know how you feel, but based on expert medical advice and your compassion, you did what was best for your dog.

 

[millio2b]

Thanks everyone for your kind words. Really appreciate it.

 

[JoanneF]

I'm glad you have checked in again, I hope you are feeling a little less traumatised today.

 

[Ken Thomas]

its not fair to lose them, but its worse keaping them going when its to much for them,one look at my dogs eyes and i knew it was hes time.,